Ignore this post..just a piece of 'shyt' to bring my heart out since blog is the only one who listens..
12.49am on the 3/2/2008..The blogger's feeling emotionally disturbed..
cause : nobody brought me up most of the time when i am feeling blue..in fact, salt was added on instead..my negative feelings are accumulated without having the change to express them out to anyone...and that is how i feel the pain in me now..
result : heart is breaking silently when nobody knows i'm weeping softly...
And i Wonder...
AM I A FAILURE?
IS MY LIFE THAT MEANINGLESS? ISIT MEANT THAT WAY?
IS SUFFERING THE ONLY THING I MUST GO THROUGH?
Negative thoughts began to fill up my mind while the Positive thoughts i always had, flowed out of my mind like water!
Dad and mom..thanks for today..without both of you TODAY, my day is CRAPPY!
I've never really felt this way in my life before (negative emotions overwhelmed me)..
Despite of everything,Im always happy being around with both of you because i know, 'you' both are the only two who want the best in me!
Not forgetting my shen who supported me in everything i do..
but TODAY???
WHAT A DAY I'VE JUST WENT THROUGH
Heart aches when arguments HAPPEN..
Just argued a little with my sister..although it was minor, but i feel as though something had just striked my heart! sorry sis..i don't mean anything.. Was just telling the truth because who doesn't want her own family to improve and be a better person in future right? if i had done anything wrong, tell off straight on my face..! Whatever it is, i hate to hurt my parents (they really mean alot to me)..I tried my best to satisfy them by doing well and of course trying very hard not to hurt them with my WRONG action..I hope i did not disappoint them to have me as their child..We always hear, nobody's perfect! Bingo! Children will sometimes do wrong things due to the influences by friends or media..But no matter how wrong the children can be, Parents are always the 1st to stand up high and be ready to guide us to the right path..And im happy that my parents are actually doing well on that because they were always there for me whenever i need them..The sacrifices they've made are just so .......................*i just could not put these feelings in words* It is simply meaningful! Without them, who am i here?
On the other hand, i actually argued with shen over a small matter as well..That made me feel as though the world is gonna end ANYTIME..Flowers are wilting..Clouds over shadowing the bright sun..
heart is breaking silently when nobody knows im weeping..(so true)
I hope that would not happen anymore..Although we had an argument, yet, we went through it few minutes later..and im glad about it :)
TO EVERYBODY OUT THERE, I APOLOGIZE IF I EVER HURT YOU..WHETHER I WAS DOING IT IN PURPOSE, JOKINGLY DOING IT OR ACCIDENTALLY DID IT...
WORLD PEACE ^^